WHEN I SAY GOODBYE

I’m awake when I sleep,

For my dreams is never ending, it keeps repeating until I’m tired

These cold hands and frozen legs,

My voice that I scream turns to a faint sigh

I always hides myself from dazzling sun arose before me,

I want to touch it, even though I know I can’t feel its warmth,

Every smile I smile is just a passing memory,

I wish I can laugh more with no regrets in my heart.

For the last time I want to tell you,

That I want to sleep in your lap,

Until I close my eyes, and those winds brings me to you

Like flowers in the summer

The sky looks so calm,

Which I love to throw my sight at it,

But, along this winding roads,

I keep broken my heart.

In the gloomy sight of rainy days,

I cried along my hollowness that empties me

My body feels numb,

I know I won’t be here for long

Smile for me, please

If you ask me, whether I’m happy all this while,

I would nod, even though in my heart I hope I’ll be happier

This shiny road I paint my dreams for you to catch and remind you of me.

I won’t say ‘sayonara’ to you

Cause it’s just too sad,

Maybe I said ‘see you later’

Even though my heart feel bitter

Emm, yeah.It felt a little bit better.

Thank you for being a part of me,

Just like summer,

I shall carry this warmth with me,

Eternally. Surely.

THAT IS JUST CUTE!

AUWWWWW..that is so cute.Hiroto's of Alice Nine little doggy,Mogu is just cute.Can't take my eyes of you!hehe

YES,THEY KNOW EVERYTHING.

TOMORROW.

maybe for some people tomorrow is just another day,boring and usual.but tomorrow is the end of my detriment.thank god.i'm imagining myself that i'm starting to put aside all equity and trust books away,with such a big RELIEF.YES,RELIEF.Its like a torture,especially when you knew that your paper gonna be marked by a strict lecturer,who demands cases in every corner of pages you wrote.I swear,if i can write with both of my hands and legs during the exam,i will 3 hours might sound long,but if you are a law student,it just unpredictable trick of time.its a s short like you feel like you just get used with the chair you sit the moment you enter the examination hall.*sigh*

It a torture more,when you are living together with clever people,with absolute capability to absorb everything.and its a very frightening thing,VERY i mention,when hearing them discuss together of things i never heard before.I was like..WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT???mentioning cases i never heard,mentioning principle i never come across......phew..i'm going to burst into bubbles.(T__________T)

the funny thing is today,i thought today is the exam day.i woke up so early in good faith that today is the exam.wow.so much for unprepared student.i don't have that much in my head,instead i'm the one who so eager to have the exam.

in the end i just want to say this:i hate you equity and trust.u already dead,why don't you make your will easier for us to understand.will you?thanks very much.

ALICE NINE-STARGAZER PV!

Yes,finally Alice nine is back again with their new single STARGAZER.i guess the single is not release yet,but the STARGAZER PV is already out.I found this pv in youtube.So cute..with Hiroto's puppy at the set!But,i guess Alice Nine is losing their originality a bit,basically i love their days in Velvet or Rainbow with more catchy songs..Shou's new look really reminds me of Alois Trancy in Kuroshitsuji!

~ENJOY!~

YES,I DO.BUT WHY???

yup,i can't deny i'm the type of person who falls in love and out again easily,like a snap of finger.And maybe because of that too,i'm still single until now,because its hard for me to find a guy that suits my taste!yeah,i know i not that beautiful to demand a guy who looks like a prince coming down from heaven,but at least finding a guy that i can imagine my future with him,that sounds...so distant for me,right now.*sigh*who cares.i don't die yet because of loneliness.hehe.But,maybe because of him i don't mind not having someone by myself.eventhough he remains in my imagination only.WHYYYYYY...(T___T)

As long you exist,that fact make me happier a bit.

Thanks Aoi.You make me dreaming all day about you,

Eventhough you don't know about my existence here,

Eventhough you never reply my tweets,

Eventhough you scream like hell in defective tragedy and still sounds cool to me,

Eventhough you always pose like a drag queen eventhough you can look cooler if you pose like usual,..err..well i blame the photographer for that,

Eventhough it took me a while to choose you between Uruha and Shou.

VAMPS-NEW SINGLE!

YEAH,its been a while after the BEAST release.It is a while?ah..forget it,we still miss them anyway!the news have it!VAMPS gonna have a new single titled "Memories" o December 15th.

~Rock duo VAMPS will release their new single titled “MEMORIES” on December 15th.

The release will be a re-cut single from their July album “BEAST.” MEMORIES features sentimental lyrics with a pop melody, overlaid on magnificent guitar arrangements.

The DVD release of the re-cut single will contain a video clip for the album track “PIANO DUET” along with MEMORIES. Both new versions were recorded overseas so fans should definitely check out the release for its unique flavor.

For those who don’t know the VAMPS song “MEMORIES,” here is the original version live.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XXsPEPqEkh4~

MISS YOU GUYS!

CREDITS TO:www.tokyohive.com

AUWWW..LEDA of DELUHI IS GETTING MARRIED.(T__T)

yeah,its a shocking news to hear from Leda,the guitarist of DELUHI who announce in his TWITTER account that he is getting married!he said:

"俺の地元の後輩、結婚するってよ"

-MY LOCAL JUNIOR,I'M GETTING MARRIED!-

Really hope that google translate is wrong!

that broke my heart.ceh.(T______T)

one more good looking guy is gone.Hope you will be happy Leda!keep on rocking!don't let your marriage pull away you true self!*sigh*

I ♥ 東京!

MOOD:STUDY WEEK.EQUITY IS A MESS.REALLY!

yup,study week is online now.my desk is full with books,various kind of it,which i hope i can manage to absorb them in short time.I WISH.the exam week starts in 27/11 with Equity and Trust as the first breaker of the exam week.what a great thing to start.(")(@____@)(").just finish with resulting trust,constructive trust is still ondaway.hopefully can finish the syllabus tomorrow!

Last night,fifah and I come out with this amazing idea.let's plan to go to Japan!eventhough we got no money yet in the bank to fulfill our dreams,but dreaming about it is good too!we start searching for tickets in Airasia,such a relief Airasia starts going to Japan.they offer cheaper tickets than other airlines,which is more acceptable!we start imagining how we drop off at Haneda airport and trying to figure out how we can move around tokyo!I always want to try board the shinkansen,but since we try to look at the price of the tickets,gosh!they were so expensive!5 day tickets for all access of Shinkansen train actually cost us 16,000 yen which is equivalent to nearly RM600!just for the transport!huhu..then we need to pack maggi cups,gardenia breads and lots of MILO to fill our stomach then..wawa(T____T)

So,now we have to find place to sleep.capsule hotels looks convenient,but sadly most of them doesn't accept female guest..maybe its because of safety reason i guess..never mind,hostels also looks comfortable..yeah,cost us nearly RM 100 for a night.sigh...we have to allocated nearly rm 500 then just for bed.honestly,if i can set myself tent there to save money,i will!

TOKYOOOO!!!!WAIT FOR ME!haha

ヴィスアゥケイ。。してる？(VISUAL KEI..do u know?)

For the first time ever,i'm addicted to music bands and got soo obsessed with them.i love their poetic lyrics,i love the way their guitars sound,and how they made me humming all day long!for ballad song lovers or maybe pop lovers,i suggest you should try softer version of visual kei bands first rather than trying the hard,fast song which have the potential to make you dizzy.That's my latest obsession,THE GAZETTE!!

THE GAZETTE actually comprises 5 members,namely Ruki,Reita,Kai,uruha and my most favourite Aoi-san!gosh..they blew me away..however its sad to know the fact i cant go to japan in this december to catch them live at NAMELESS SIX BULLETS~TOKYO DOME..hurm..really dissapointed(")(@___@)(")really hope i can go next year!

for first timer,i would suggest you these tracks:

a)Cassis

b)Reila(this one is sad,rumours said its about Ruki's girlfriend who commit suicide)

c)紅蓮(Guren)

d)Calm envy

good luck!!ill talk later bout Alice Nine after this!wohoo!

After so long.saki yuuji

Yeah,it's true.it's been so long i never write anything here,until i,myself nearly forget that i actually have a blog.lame me.well its been a year,mybe,i guess i can't recall the last time i'm typing in this box to express myself,but perhaps after this i wrote more,eventhough i have loads of works and studying to do.

recently,i have lots of thoughts coming to my mind.and it even makes me frustrated more when i can't seem find the answer.i'm just dropping down in the pitch black world of fantasy,which i love to remained there silently.honestly,i don't know myself.The fact of sometimes thinking about it is sad.the words' your existence is nothing but sad' really kills me inside.envy is a vain word.yeah,can't deny it.

I'm nearly reaching 22 years old, and in fact i'm still doing nothing!still have nothing,while i'm watching enviously others who can reach their dreams at my age.it makes me wonder,am i destinied not to do things in my life?am i going to lead a life like an ordinary person,breath and die like most people do it too?call me ungrateful or else,but yes,i want to be different.i don't ask much,but at least i am able to do things i love,it would be so much for me.like seriously.living a life that you really hope.sounds interesting to me.

therefore i'm planning slowly,i planted all the seeds of my dreams so i can't harvest them later when it all ready.lets finishing law,get a job, start saving,and let's live in Japan.I hope it will not remain as a dream.i will make it a reality.one day you will see.(")(^____^)(")